The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)
Anywhere together in a 3000 dollar used car
Without a care in the world
Linking arms, committing memories in a photo
Understanding each other in our sleepless nights
My dreams became your future
A pair of beautiful birds chasing each other
A love I could never get enough of
A person I want to meet when reborn
But in front of this thing called time
We can’t win against our greed
Sounds of your tears alone in the bathroom
The suspicious gazes focused on me
As the days go by I think of breaking up again
The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby
The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)
I’m so busy that I feel guilty
I fill my wallet with money and make some time
Even though I don’t express my love
When I have dinner and watch a movie with you
I hope you might feel better but
I continue to be in debt to my thoughts
As I walk and tease you
it’s all a played out game
Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Hearbreak takes love and goes away.
The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby
The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)
Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Hearbreak takes love and goes away. (x2)
How nice would it be if love
was something that could be earned?
(It’s all a dream, holding your hand)
How nice would it be
if love was something to get by wanting it?
(It’s all a dream but I can’t escape)
The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)
Are men caught in love done so because of weakness?
Are men starved of love not worthy of it?
Are men that keep secrets bad men?
Why is it that love changes?
lonely soul
Thursday, 26 January 2012
Thursday, 12 January 2012
what friends are for
well hello there!!!
earlier i thought of a devilish plan and even suicidal ones (not to that extend)... but than a friend contacted me.. she told me of a problem... the irony of the situation was it was exactly (more or so) what i was going through... no one really know what i was going through or didn't cared less... i was quite shocked at first because we haven't been in contact for about a month now and she chooses really when was in despair to contact me... i didn't know how much it cost to her but we talked for 57 minutes and 27 second exact... i guess what they say is true...what u give u get back... no matter if its good or bad... even though the problem weren't really solved it helped a lot to know that u are not alone in this world...so thank u my friend whom i truly doubt know the existence of this blog that i called Natul... thank u for hearing what i got to say... (actually she contacted me right after i cried)...
well when talking about friend i would never forget this angel....to me shes an angel.. because she always knows what to say even when she doesn't know the whole story... we would simply talk of the the things that to others aren't important enough....but to us it is really important.. she had helped me in several occasions (whether she realised it or not) to forget my despair and pain even when i just cried and excused it as being sleepy( your eyes waters when you are sleepy) and make jokes just so i could laugh... even when i'm in my bad moods(those time in the month) she'll make me laugh just by being there...well she is no other than my pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika . im just really thankful to you for always being there..
there are many friends i would like too mention but im really sleepy right now... the point of my rambling is dont disregard your friend..they are the only ones u can lean one when family is out of the picture.. u always have to be careful not to annoy them (unless its your thing) and take good care of them... kamsahamnida chingu
earlier i thought of a devilish plan and even suicidal ones (not to that extend)... but than a friend contacted me.. she told me of a problem... the irony of the situation was it was exactly (more or so) what i was going through... no one really know what i was going through or didn't cared less... i was quite shocked at first because we haven't been in contact for about a month now and she chooses really when was in despair to contact me... i didn't know how much it cost to her but we talked for 57 minutes and 27 second exact... i guess what they say is true...what u give u get back... no matter if its good or bad... even though the problem weren't really solved it helped a lot to know that u are not alone in this world...so thank u my friend whom i truly doubt know the existence of this blog that i called Natul... thank u for hearing what i got to say... (actually she contacted me right after i cried)...
well when talking about friend i would never forget this angel....to me shes an angel.. because she always knows what to say even when she doesn't know the whole story... we would simply talk of the the things that to others aren't important enough....but to us it is really important.. she had helped me in several occasions (whether she realised it or not) to forget my despair and pain even when i just cried and excused it as being sleepy( your eyes waters when you are sleepy) and make jokes just so i could laugh... even when i'm in my bad moods(those time in the month) she'll make me laugh just by being there...well she is no other than my pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika . im just really thankful to you for always being there..
there are many friends i would like too mention but im really sleepy right now... the point of my rambling is dont disregard your friend..they are the only ones u can lean one when family is out of the picture.. u always have to be careful not to annoy them (unless its your thing) and take good care of them... kamsahamnida chingu
Saturday, 7 January 2012
Friday, 6 January 2012
Confession of a friend
It’s been a while
since my heart has been changing,
since I’ve been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry
I’d rather protect you,
although I don’t know if it will make it better…
This time I’ll hold you and love you
is what I thought
Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.
As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…
You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it’s a blessing
Whenever you say let’s never change,
I had to push my feelings down
It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better
I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but…
Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)
As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)
That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn’t say it)
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…
since my heart has been changing,
since I’ve been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry
I’d rather protect you,
although I don’t know if it will make it better…
This time I’ll hold you and love you
is what I thought
Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.
As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…
You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it’s a blessing
Whenever you say let’s never change,
I had to push my feelings down
It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better
I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but…
Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)
As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)
That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn’t say it)
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…
Thursday, 5 January 2012
mom and facebook
well eventhough its kinda too late, i learned that if your parent (esp mother) doesnt know about facebook, twitter etc just let them be. dont ever try to teach them how to use it. regretfully my mom has a facebook account and yeah she moniters every single thing i did. not enough with that her siblings (not mine) have their own facebook acount. i secretly wanted to unfriend them all but i was afraid i got caught. so i just bear with it.. i dont really care at first.. i started really caring yesterday when she said "don't thing what u did in fb i didnt already know" (she said this in malay).. i was taken aback for a moment there.. she was somehow (by the tone of it) thretening us.. i was like "what?".. i know she kinda have the right to do so but just do it quietly..dont brag about it to the world..
i have been away from home for five years and i was just used to the idea im alone in a state without any family or relatives.. to elaborate..i lived in selangor and went to school in johor... i got no relatives in johor... i survived the city alone with the help of my friends... that was when i'm 13 years old.. i survived (i feel like applauding myself)... what makes them think i cant handle myself now... i'm just sitting at home doing nothing..
well i have an older sister.. she likes playing with my mom's galaxy tab.. she likes to log in to her fb n twitter account from it.. but 'smartly' she didn't log out of it after using.. she is quite safe with fb because my mom uses it to so she has to log in so she will automaticly log out of my sister's profile...but for the twitter (my sister often use this one) there was no reason why my mother need to log out of it.. so secretly she moniters what my sisterpost tweet.
when my mother started her lecture on she'll monitor us (yada yada yada) i was thinking.. " ah dont worry just us the twitter next time" then she spilled the beans on my sister twitter account on her tab.. i was like ---------. this is the only place she wont know.. the only ones who knows about this blog is my pal pika and my younger brother because we're sharing the same laptop.
the moral of the story is dont ever influence your mother to open any social page because you'll regret it sooner or later..i'm just really thankful my dad is not interested in facebook related( even after persuasion from my mom;-)
i have been away from home for five years and i was just used to the idea im alone in a state without any family or relatives.. to elaborate..i lived in selangor and went to school in johor... i got no relatives in johor... i survived the city alone with the help of my friends... that was when i'm 13 years old.. i survived (i feel like applauding myself)... what makes them think i cant handle myself now... i'm just sitting at home doing nothing..
well i have an older sister.. she likes playing with my mom's galaxy tab.. she likes to log in to her fb n twitter account from it.. but 'smartly' she didn't log out of it after using.. she is quite safe with fb because my mom uses it to so she has to log in so she will automaticly log out of my sister's profile...but for the twitter (my sister often use this one) there was no reason why my mother need to log out of it.. so secretly she moniters what my sister
when my mother started her lecture on she'll monitor us (yada yada yada) i was thinking.. " ah dont worry just us the twitter next time" then she spilled the beans on my sister twitter account on her tab.. i was like ---------. this is the only place she wont know.. the only ones who knows about this blog is my pal pika and my younger brother because we're sharing the same laptop.
the moral of the story is dont ever influence your mother to open any social page because you'll regret it sooner or later..i'm just really thankful my dad is not interested in facebook related( even after persuasion from my mom;-)
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
without a heart
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying...
Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeditely?
Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
my eyes are filling up with tears again, this seperation between us..
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
So I wouldn't be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
After you left, I think I became a fool
I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.
I shove myself into a corner and live
Without you there's nothing left to do
A day is too long, way too long
But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,
when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends
was so easy, but why couldn't I do the same to you?
I always regretted being so slow,
I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond.
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
Again today, I can see through your lies
My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help
How can I smile in times like this?
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
(let's smile) like couples in dramas
(let's smile) like the title of your blog
(let's smile) happy like in my past
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let's stop crying now...
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying...
Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeditely?
Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
my eyes are filling up with tears again, this seperation between us..
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
So I wouldn't be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
After you left, I think I became a fool
I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.
I shove myself into a corner and live
Without you there's nothing left to do
A day is too long, way too long
But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,
when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends
was so easy, but why couldn't I do the same to you?
I always regretted being so slow,
I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond.
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
Again today, I can see through your lies
My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help
How can I smile in times like this?
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
(let's smile) like couples in dramas
(let's smile) like the title of your blog
(let's smile) happy like in my past
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let's stop crying now...
1st Drive
ok today i drived a real car..no i haven't gotten my license yet. i had a class and i realised today that i am completely clueless about automobil..i know for a fact that i didnt even knew the existence of clac in a manual car until just recently. i never knew it played such an important part in driving a anual car. luckily no one was injured in the process of teaching me how to drive( not so sure of that because i think the car secretly prays that i wont ride him again). now i have high respect to anyone who drive especially manual cars. i couldt even control the steering let alone control the clac. i kept going of track and i am so nervous of the driving.
i am currently enjoying my life as the passenger. after receiving my driving license (to come) i think i would just drive less than 1 km radius. i dont even know what people sees when they look at the back and side mirror. fyi it didnt help me for the three point park. the teacher look depressed teaching me. i didnt get a thing he said. i only followed his orders. and i dont even know his name..hahaha..
then i skipped lunch because 1st, i was so filled with adrenaline rush (i am laughing at myself for this) and 2nd because i didnt have any money. its not that im totally broke. i joked at my dad to give me pocket money and he just laugh it off... i cant just give away a hundred note just for a bottle of mineral water....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38kqFq0llPA&feature=related
i watched this and tears couldnt stop.. it doesnt have anything to do with drivng.. i'm just really annoying ...hehe
i am currently enjoying my life as the passenger. after receiving my driving license (to come) i think i would just drive less than 1 km radius. i dont even know what people sees when they look at the back and side mirror. fyi it didnt help me for the three point park. the teacher look depressed teaching me. i didnt get a thing he said. i only followed his orders. and i dont even know his name..hahaha..
then i skipped lunch because 1st, i was so filled with adrenaline rush (i am laughing at myself for this) and 2nd because i didnt have any money. its not that im totally broke. i joked at my dad to give me pocket money and he just laugh it off... i cant just give away a hundred note just for a bottle of mineral water....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38kqFq0llPA&feature=related
i watched this and tears couldnt stop.. it doesnt have anything to do with drivng.. i'm just really annoying ...hehe
Monday, 2 January 2012
Dream Guy
MBLAQ GO
ok..the guy of my dream would have to be someone like him. some asked..why? well i dont really know. he just captures my heart. see he loves children just like i do (sometimes) so arent we're like made for each other. muahaha. i know that there are hundreds or even thousands of his fans out there. i'm just simply stating that he's like a (not-so-perfect-but-really-perfect) guy. hehe
i'm just simply trying to voice out an opinion (more to myself) and to fulfill my dream of having GO's pic in my blog..one dream*checked*.. i need to find other dreams..
Sunday, 1 January 2012
First post!!
Ok...Today i officially have a blog. muahahaha.i'm the king of the world!!( ok maybe queen). and also i'm using a new laptop..hehe..my dad got annoyed of us using his laptop for work and gave us a new one.. i'm loving my life<3. So just wanna say for the first post HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! May all your wishes for the year be fulfilled and may all of us become a better person. amin...
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