“Hey, let’s go lunch.” Fakhirin said to
Amir.
“You
go first. I don’t feeling like it.” Amir declined Fakhirin’s request.
“Then
whom will I be eating lunch with?” Fakhirin showed him a sad face.
“You
can go eat with Amore and others. It’s not like I’m the only guy friend you
have.”
“Amir,
you’ve never skipped your lunch before this. Is there something wrong?”
Fakhirin asked with a concern look on his face.
Amir
sighed. “No. everything’s fine. I’m just stressed out with assignments and
stuffs.”
“Are
you su……,” Fakhirin’s words came to a stop when Amore enters the class.
“Fakhirin,
let’s eat! It’ll be my treat today!” Amore said to Fakhirin with a wide grin on
his face.
“Oh
wow really? Why you suddenly become so generous today?” Fakhirin said. He laughed
as he being pulled by Amore, moving towards the door.
“Ah
wait,” Fakhirin forced Amore to stop, turning his body backward to face Amir.
“Amir, we’ll have Calculus class after this. Let’s eat lunch together okay.” He
said to Amir while his left hand still locked in Amore’s hand.
For
a moment Amir stared at their locked hands. He covered his face with his right
palm to avoid eye contact with Fakhirin.
“You
two just go! I’ll be fine here alone!” Amir shouted at both of them, making
Fakhirin startled with his sudden act.
“Fakhirin,
let’s go. Maybe Amir has personal problems.” Amore said, his hand still pulling
Fakhirin’s. Amore’s strength is enough to pull Fakhirin only with his hand
since he is quite muscular.
“O…okay,”
Fakhirin said.
Amir watched as Fakhirin and Amore
disappeared from his sight. He felt himself miserable than ever. Since the
incident he witnessed the other day, he cannot stop thinking about his best
friend. Whether or not he has any feelings to him.
“Yah,
wait for me!” Fakhirin shouted to Amore.
“Ahaha,
catch me if you can, tortoise!” Amore hurriedly running away from Fakhirin.
Fakhirin was unable to catch up on him since Amore is quite fast.
“Give
me that back!”
“You’re
not go...” Amore stopped his running when he saw Fakhirin tripped. Slowly, he
approached Fakhirin.
“Here
you go,” He gave the keychain to Fakhirin back. “Geez why would you trip on
yourself when running. You’re such a mama boy,” Amore teased. “And what’s so
important about the keychain anyway?”
Fakhirin
smiled. “This keychain is from a very important person in my life. I couldn’t
bear to lost it.” He said as he reached out his hand to get the keychain from
Amore.
“It
was from a girl, right? She must be cute, huh?” Amore laughed.
“Yeah,
of course.” They both laughed.
Without their notice, Amir silently watched
from afar. He felt jealous and curious at the same time of what conversation
they might have. And why are they running earlier? He sighed.
He should not have that kind of feelings to
Fakhirin.
Because they are both males.
“It
can’t be, right? Arghhh!” Amir mumbled to himself. This is all so wrong. There are a lot of pretty girls out there. Why
would he fall for him? His very own best friend? And most importantly, what
would Fakhirin react when he knew about this?
Right. He decided to let Fakhirin know his
feelings towards him. Then only he could stay calm. He could not control
himself seeing Fakhirin with other guys.
“Tomorrow
I’ll tell him,” Amir whispered to himself.
Fakhirin closed the room’s door. His
roommate is not going to be at home tonight.
He suddenly remembered that day’s incident.
He dashed to rummage his sling bag to find his important belonging. Since it is
so small it will take time to find it.
Fakhirin stopped. He stared at it for quite
a long time. And before he knew it, the keychain had already kept in his
locker.
“What’s
wrong with you today, Amir? Were you mad with me? Or had you found out that I
have loved you all this while?” He let out a big sight. The keychain Amir gave
him during his birthday should not be brought to school. Earlier today Amore
tried to throw it away. He had been so panicked just now.
But Amir would probably think of him as a
weird guy for liking a person of same gender with him.
This is why he did not have any courage to
tell Amir that he likes him.
But he will always be his side.
And not letting any other guy become close
to him.
Because he wants Amir to be only his.
